Hi. I never thought that we’ll end up this way. I’ve predicted that was just temporary, but not this way. Nothing’s worse than being replaced, isn’t it? & thank you, thank you.

 Hi Ikan, Gue emang salah, I’ve fallen for you this hard. And it hurts, really. Apalagi jatuh, nggak ada yang nangkep. Yeah you WERE there. Not now. I’ve wished a million times to God for you to come back, but you disappeared like nothing really happened. Hehe sumpah berakhir tragis abis… It deeply hurts I swear to anything. I just want you to come back… I want my reality as good as my dreams, and that happens when I’m with you. When you make me feel like I’m the only one. When you make me feel like everything’s fine. When you make me feel like… Heaven on earth, when I’m with you.
Sekarang? :).

 Berarti those signs are fake ya? Mungkin universe cuman ngebuat gue berharap tapi gak dapet apa apa. Mungkin universe cuman mau ngerjain gue. Jail banget sih. :)

  “…Already broken, already gone, already know you’re moving on. I’m a breathing, talking.. Dead man, walking. Already see it, in your face, already someone, in my place. I’m a breathing, talking.. Dead man, walking..”

a song for you

[1st Verse]
I Don’t Need No Dreams When I’m By Your Side
Every Moment Takes Me To Paradise
Darlin’, Let Me Hold You
Warm You In My Arms And Melt Your Fears Away
Show You All The Magic That A Perfect Love Can
Make
I Need You Night And Day

[Chorus (1)]
So Baby, Be Mine (Baby You Gotta Be Mine)
And Girl I’ll Give You All I Got To Give
So Baby, Be My Girl (All The Time)
And We Can Share This Ecstasy
As Long As We Believe In Love

[2nd Verse]
I Won’t Give You Reason To Change Your Mind
(I Guess It’s Still You Thrill Me, Baby, Be Mine)
You Are All The Future That I Desire
Girl, I Need To Hold You
Share My Feelings In The Heat Of Love’s Embrace
Show You All The Passion Burning In My Heart
Today
It’s Never Gonna Fade

[Chorus (2)]
So Baby, Be Mine (Baby You Gotta Be Mine)
And Girl I’ll Give You All I Got To Give
So Baby, Be My Girl (All The Time)
You’re Everything This World Could Be
The Reason That I Live

[Bridge]
Won’t You Stay With Me Until The Mornin’ Sun
I Promise You Now That The Dawn Will Be Different
Lady Can’t You See That Heaven’s Just Begun
It’s Livin’ Here Inside Our Hearts

[3rd Verse]
There’ll Be No More Mountains For Us To Climb
(I Can’t Be Still You Thrill Me, Baby, Be Mine)
This Will Be A Love Lasting For All Time
Girl You Got To Hold Me
We Can Touch The Sky And Light The Darkest Day
Hold Me, Only You And I Can Make Sweet Love This Way
There’s No More I Can Say

[Chorus]
So Baby, Be Mine (Baby You Gotta Be Mine)
And Girl I’ll Give You All I Got To Give
So Baby, Be My Girl (All The Time)
You’re Everything This World Could Be
The Reason That I Live

[Chorus]
Baby Be My Girl
And Girl I’ll Give You All I Got To Give
So Baby, Be Mine, Baby, Be Mine
You’re Everything This World Could Be To Me

[Chorus]
C’mon, Girl, C’mon Girl
So Baby, Be Mine
You’re Everything This World Could Be To Me

Baby Be Mine by Michael Jackson :)

him

“If you love two people at the same time, choose the second one, because if you really loved the first one you wouldn’t have fallen for the second.” –  Johnny Depp.

“A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other… Maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever.” – Dave Matthews Band

I think… I’m in love, maybe? 
Hi H, I never thought I’ll fall for you this hard. But well, I do. I’ve been thinking about you in the past week. I’ve thinking about us. And I don’t know, these feelings just come and haunt me every night. And every time I’m with you, I feel safe, I feel protected, I feel comfortable, I feel… Better than ever, I swear.

Not being too confident, tapi setiap dia nyapa gue tuh… Beda. Banget. Dia jarang banget nyapa cewek, palingan cuman senyum. Tapi kalo sama gue, he does. He always does that Michael Jackson thing in front of me. Yeah, he loves MJ. He chose me as his group member, he chose me FIRST than the others. My heart can’t stop screaming “iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou”. Nanya gimana rasanya? Gue kayak gak nginjek ke tanah. I’m happier than every person in the whole universe :)

At this point, I’m thinking to myself, am I in love? Did I just say that I love him? Since I don’t believe in happy endings neither happiness without sadness coming after it, this is the truth.
I am the bad guy. I love him, and I wish he loves me too. But someone loves him since the first day. I feel REALLY bad and I don’t know what to do. Gue udah ngejauhin dia kemarin, sebelum gue suka, tapi dia ngedeketin. Nyapa. Ngajak bercanda. I feel like we’re stuck in the moment… Gue bingung harus kayak gimana. Should I give up and back to my old love?

And I’ve handed over this problem to the universe (like in How I Met Your Mother :p). Since yesterday. Today, I saw 8.18. Tadi, bulu mata gue jatoh. And guess what? It’s letter H. Let’s see tomorrow.. & I’m praying for me, for us. :)