나 아직도 너를 지울 수 없어
자꾸자꾸 니가 생각나
니가 너무 보고 싶어
밤새 한숨도 잘 수 없어
내 맘 창문을 두드리는 빗소리
니가 떠나 버린 그자리
너무나도 그리워서
밤새 한숨도 잘 수 없어 난

AJ – 빗길 비켜 지나가는 너의 뒷 모습
아무 것도 할 수 없는 나는 거듭
해서 매일 난 또 후회를 해 미안해
기도해 I want you to be back
I can’t 견딜 수 없어 네가
없는 하루니까 참을 수 없어 눈가에 눈물 흘러 내가
again 너를 잊을 수 있을까
언제까지 나는 이럴까

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I still can’t erase you
Again and again I think of you
I miss you too much
I can’t sleep at night
The raindrops are knocking at my heart’s window
The place that you’ve left
I miss it too much
I can’t sleep at night

The view of your backside walking through the rainy path
I can’t do anything but stay
Everyday I keep regretting it, I’m sorry
I pray
I want you to be back
I can’t, I can’t touch you
I can’t bear the day without you
Can’t hold back the tears
again I can’t forget you
Till when will I be like this

0330 by 유키스

15/5

tomorrow is the last day.
sometimes i hate goodbyes, ends;
sometimes i am thankful.
i know i hate to say goodbye with the one i love the most;
but i know everything has to end, has an end.

I'm scared to get close and I hate being alone.
I long for that feeling to not feel at all.
The higher I get, the lower I'll sink.
I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim.

Can you hear the silence?
Can you see the dark?
Can you fix the broken?
Can you feel my heart?

sad

i hate being ugly.
i hate being fat.
i hate being sad.
i want to be someone else.
i want to be someone you love.
i want to be everything you want me to be.

jatuh cinta.

pas masih ganteng.

 sekarang juga masih kok, yakan?

I always save the best for last. Hi?

Happy birthday Bang Yong Guk-ssi, & this post is dedicated for you! :-) xx

some quotes from Flower Boy Next Door

"How timid and frail is unrequited love? A place you entered of your own accord, but you’re trapped inside, unable to find an exit. He doesn’t know a thing, and could one day leave my line of sight, and the love ends passively. A love that does not bloom flowers, and thus cannot dream of bearing fruit. A love like a seed that is forgotten. That is unrequited love.” - Go Dok Mi

"When she goes out into the world, that woman often becomes invisible. When she gets pushed aside by shoulders, stepped on by feet, and stuck in between the lines, she feels like she’s not visible to the world. So she hid in her room. The small room was soft and comfortable, like a nest to a bird that’s injured its wing. In that space, that woman can breathe freely. She never once missed the outside world or dreamt of it. At least until now…
At least until now…
At least until now…
At least until now…"

"People who think that they can just grab the hand of happiness when it’s offered to them—how happy must they be? That woman becomes nervous when she is too happy. To that woman, happiness is like a child’s game of blowing bubbles. The moment when she touches the bubbles that float her way carrying the light of the rainbow, they burst. In front of happiness, that woman always gives up, before the hand is even offered."

“What is your truth? Answer honestly. Whenever someone asked her that, she kept her mouth shut. When unwrapped from its wrapping paper of lies, the truth is not a sweet candy or a chocolate that appears with a flourish. In the way that skin is needed to protect blood and flesh, she needed lies to cover her truth. More than being honest and exposing her scars, that woman found it safer to lie with a brilliant smile.”

“Her mouth is like a broken faucet in a mountain village. When it’s needed, not one drop comes out, and in the middle of a silent night it flows on its own. In that moment, all the words she couldn’t speak come pouring out belatedly. She vows, Next time, I should answer like this, I should make this retort. That woman speaks the most impressive lines when she’s alone.”

25/3

kuanggap diriku sebagai burung. aku adalah burung, keinginanku hanya ingin terbang. aku tidak suka berlama lama di suatu tempat. aku ingin terbang kemanapun yang kuinginkan. aku ingin terbang melintasi horizon, membelah langit, mempelajari hal hal yang tidak ku ketahui sebelumnya. ya, aku adalah burung. burung yang dikurung di dalam sangkarnya.