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....And I'm still wide awake.

I'm struggling with these skinny thoughts of mine that haunt me every night. It happened back then and it's happening again. I hate being fat. I haaate to be back again. I'm in the middle of wanting to be skinny — or wanting to be healthy. I want them both, why can't I?

I'm happier when I'm at my lowest weight.

I'm not an anorexic, nor obsessed with anorexia blah. I love curvy, skinny, girls I always saw on my instagram feed or skinny girls I adore at school. I wanna be like them. :-(