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Pardon this post's title because I ran out of ideas :p. So hi guys. I'm a high schooler now. I've been wearing white and grey for almost a month and I can say I. Am. Exhausted. Yes. So many things going on I don't have a room to take a breath. I have so much like a lot to write but I don't have that time! (Or maybe I'm just layzay...... No.)

My first month went well I can say. The first week, I didn't feel click with my classmates which some of them know each other before. Also, they laugh a lot at the smallest thing. OKAY that sentence might seem like I'm the desperate miserable young girl LOL NO believe me I'm cheerful and fun to be with ;) *wink* *wink* *wink* but you know.. I always need silence time. But those feelings disappeared as the time goes. I think. And I hope so.

What makes Fatiha so busy? There are a lot of tasks that teachers give us. A LOT. Everyday, every. Single. Frickin. DAY. And all the teachers just like, "nah, the curriculum requires us to do that!" Well OK. The curriculum is actually intended to make us more active, but majority of students can only feel the pressure.. Including me. I keep telling to myself that this is just the beginning and I have to prepare for more.

Besides school thingy, there aren't a lot of things going on. But yeah there are some big changes and big impacts to me.

1. I'm still trying to pray everyday and keep my-inner-layzay disappear. I'm learning how to love myself and thank Him for the bless that He gave me, for everything He taught me. I'm not a masjid girl nor a hijabi, my religion is not perfect yet but I'm fixing it. I hope I can be a good muslimah, amen :)
2. My mom is diagnosed with sudden deafness. Her right ear has stopped hearing since a week ago. You can google it, it's a rare sickness I think. The causes can be blood circulating problem (like my mom), trauma, infectious diseases, etc. I pray to God eeeeeeveryday to keep the sickness away from her, to keep her save and to make her smile and cheerful like she used to. 
3. I want to be more active in school. I cannot help I want to join every classes and every hangouts :p.
4. My house has finally turned into..... 'My Home' :) OMG guys let me tell you, after all the changes we've done (like; we transformed Azzam's bedroom into a library, transformed 'living room' into the actual living room. Nah, you know what I mean). Makes me want to stay at home all day!

That's all for now. I've got LOOOTS of homework waiting and shouting "do me!" and the other one "do me first!"
Hi, homeworks. You guys are the only ones I don't want to do..