Assalamualaikum. Ehm. Sekali kali deh curhat di blog.

Hidup gue sekarang... Gak tau deh ya, ancur. Ada ya orang segitu jahatnya sama gue? Kadang gue ngerasa pengen cepet cepet senior high, karena udah planning ke Singapore/Aussie/Turkey biar bener bener jauh dari Jakarta. Tapi gue inget, senior high itu masih lama banget. Beh --"

Gue ngerasa gak punya temen.. Padahal mereka semua nganggep gue temen, tapi kenapa gue masih sendiri? Atau, ya, sahabat gue yang paling deket sama gue nusuk gue dari belakang. Gue capek. Hampir tiap hari gue nangis. Bener bener patah semangat dan gak ada yang bisa ngebuat gue seneng lagi kayak dulu. Kadang gue mikir, kenapa hidup gak adil? Yang cantik bisa ngedapetin semuanya yang dia mau. Pemikiran gue selalu kayak gini, tapi ini bener.

Gue harap gue bisa escape dari hidup untuk beberapa bulan aja, atau dapet temen yang loyal, bisa ngehibur gue, sepemikiran sama gue, gak bakal ninggalin gue, dan yang pasti gak makan temen sendiri. Tapi orang kayak gitu.... Hampir nggak ada :|

Ya udalah segitu aja. Makasih yang baca HAHA *padahal nggak ada*. BYE!

09 - 10 - 11

"Neo eomneun naegen useumi boiji anha. Nunmuljocha goiji anha. Deoneun salgo sipji anha."
It means,
"Without you happiness cannot be found in me. I can’t even shed any tears. I don’t want to live anymore."

:)

Big Bang - Lies.

:)

I wish someone could love me like Severus Snape loves Lily Evans until his last breath. :">

Broke up

On the first day of our relationship, you said..

"I want to be your life partner." in turkish

&

On the last day of our relationship, you said..

"I'm sorry, it's my best choice. That I want to move on and done with you."

I know.

And I think this is the best decision,

That I'm better off without you.

Goodbye 21 :)

~

Talk to me softly
There is something in your eyes
Don't hang your head in sorrow
And please don't cry
I know how you feel inside I've
I've been there before
Somethin is changin' inside you
And don't you know

Give me a whisper
And give me a sign
Give me a kiss before you
tell me goodbye
Don't you take it so hard now
And please don't take it so bad
I'll still be thinkin' of you
And the times we had, baby

Don't you cry tonight
I still love you baby
There's a heaven above you baby

I could never hate you. Even if I tried. There would always be a reason to love you and that’s why it scares me. I see more love in you than I do hate, but I know what it feels like to be lonely, I know what it’s like to feel everything and nothing, I know what it’s like to cry myself to sleep, I know how it feels when someone breaks your heart. I know. And I never want to feel that way again. And it scares me to see a future with you. A life with you. Because if I give you my all, how do I know you won’t turn around and leave me?

this is funny

HAHAHA LOL