Hi peepol! Long time no see. I was busy with HEAPS of school stuffs and hell yeah, HOLIDAY! When my friends from other school are busy with their final exams and I'm here males malesan so yeah ;) ANYWAY I JUST GOT BACK FROM MALANG! It's late anyway but whatever. I went there for 5 days, from May 24th to 29th with my buddies (: such a great city to explore. I want to live there someday.

Okay, summer, okay. Everybody's preparing for their holiday to Singapore, Malaysia, even around Europe and Asia, Bali, or islands around Indonesia. And I'm sitting here like wow. My mom said WE WON'T GO ANYWHERE because of... Idk. "But mom.... We planned to explore Asia....." well, she won't listen to me anyway. But that's ok. That means I will explore J-ROCK AND VISUAL KEI THINGY YAAAAY.

Let me introduce you, my new addiction. Japan Rock. Now I listen to the GazettE, L'Arc~en~Ciel, Rentrer En Soi, and so many more. They're so addictive! <3.

That's enough. Danke! Xx

science&faith

You won't find faith or hope down a telescope

You won't find heart and soul in the stars

You can break everything down to chemicals

But you can't explain a love like ours.

yayy (:

20-05-12

You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains.
You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines.
You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when wind blows.
This is why I am afraid, you say that you love me too.

24/04/12 (2)

Cross off the things you've done.

• Graduated high school
• Collected something really stupid.
• Smoked a cigarette.
• Got so drunk you passed out.
• Rode every ride at an amusement park.
• Gone to a rock concert.
• Helped someone.
• Gone fishing.
• Watched four movies in one night.
• Gone long periods of time without sleep.
• Lied to someone.
• Snorted cocaine.
• Failed a class.
• Smoked weed.
• Dealt drugs.
• Been in a car accident.
• Been in a tornado.
• Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid).
• Watched someone die.
• Been to a funeral.
• Burned yourself. (slightly)
• Ran a marathon.
• Cried yourself to sleep.
• Been on a plane.
• Been cheated on.
• Written a 10 page letter.
• Gone skiing.
• Been sailing.
• Had a best friend.
• Lost someone you loved.
• Shoplifted something.
• Been to jail.
• Dangerously close to being in jail.
• Skipped school.
• Had detention
• Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
• Stolen books from the library.
• Gone to a different country.
• Dropped out of school.
• Been in a mental hospital.
• Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.
• Had an online diary.
• Had a yard sale.
• Had a lemonade stand.
• Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
• Been in a school play.
• Been fired from a job.
• Taken a lie detector test.
• Swam with dolphins.
• Gone to Sea World.
• Voted for someone on a reality TV show.
• Written poetry.
• Read more than 20 books a year.
• Gone to Europe. 
• Loved someone you shouldn’t have.
• Used a colouring book over age 12.
• Had surgery.
• Had stitches.
• Taken a taxi.
• Seen the Washington Monument.
• Had more than 5 IM’s/online conversations going at once.
• Overdosed.
• Had a drug or alcohol problem.
• Been in a fist fight
• Suffered any form of abuse.
• Gone surfing in California.
• Had a hamster/guinea pig.
• Pet a wild animal.
• Used a credit card.
• Did “spirit day” at school.
• Dyed your hair.
• Got a tattoo.
• Had something pierced.
• Got straight A’s.
• Been on the Honor Roll.
• Known someone with HIV or AIDS.
• Made-out with someone.
• Played on a sports team.
• Snuck out of the house.
• Swore at a teacher.
• Gone laser tagging.
• Been on the TV.
• Skinny-dipped.
• Driven a car.
• Performed in front of an audience.
• Been in love.
• Had a blonde moment.
• Been on a train.
• Seen a ghost.
• Gone bungee-jumping.
• Been to Mexico.
• Crashed a car.
• Sky dived.
• Been kissed in the rain.
• Made an 11:11 wish.
• Drank alcohol. 
• Forwarded a chain letter.
• Made a mistake.

24/04/12

I cried this morning because of that video. Susan walked into the stage, and people suddenly laughed because she's fat, she's not pretty, she's creepy, and she danced weirdly. When Susan said "I'm trying to be a professional singer", the crowd just laughed because it seemed impossible. And then she started to sing..... Mind blown. This is how people judge from their physical appearance without knowing their life. Susan, you're incredible.

Soundtrack of my life

"But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around."

Radiohead - Creep

09.03.12

Do you ever think,

that you're dancing all over my head all the time?

Do you ever notice,

that I'm searching for you when you're not around?

Do you ever wonder,

how your smile could make my day?

Do you ever know,

that I'm in love with you, this much?

Do I ever cross your mind?

Ah, arasseo. We're just strangers.

Mian. For expecting too much.