hi,
you're tired listening to my stories aren't you?
the same person, the bigger love.
i'm afraid
afraid of losing
afraid of being hated
afraid of misunderstanding
afraid of seeing you with someone else
better
than
me
i'm afraid if i annoy you all the time
if my texts disturb you
if i disturb you by my existence
i'm afraid of my hopes
my dreams
your goodbye
stay, forever, my dear,
hr.
him
Tuesday, 5 February 2013
KK is tired ashjsdhksd;s
i've been busy with all these things like turkish dance, endless homeworks, tasks, projects, belom lagi weekly test damn it ga penting banget. i need to take a looooooooooooooooong break like srsly :c mau gue habiskan dengan nonton running man - makan - minum susu dingin - dengerin lagu - fangirling - TIDUR SEHARIAN omg my freaking dream (walaupun gue lakuin tiap weekend) tapi gak cukup huhu. i want to be tireless.
and reckless.
mikirin orang juga bikin capek...
udah ah
i've been busy with all these things like turkish dance, endless homeworks, tasks, projects, belom lagi weekly test damn it ga penting banget. i need to take a looooooooooooooooong break like srsly :c mau gue habiskan dengan nonton running man - makan - minum susu dingin - dengerin lagu - fangirling - TIDUR SEHARIAN omg my freaking dream (walaupun gue lakuin tiap weekend) tapi gak cukup huhu. i want to be tireless.
and reckless.
mikirin orang juga bikin capek...
udah ah
Sunday, 3 February 2013
If she's amazing, she won't be easy.
If she's easy, she won't be amazing.
If she's worth it, you won't give up.
If you give up, you're not worthy.
Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you; you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for.
(Bob Marley)
Thursday, 31 January 2013
Hari ini aku menyadari sesuatu, tentang konspirasi garis yang kupelajari di kelas matematika. Hari ini tidak membosankan seperti biasa, belajar garis membuatku berfikir tentang kisah cinta yang sebenarnya digambarkan sesimpel mungkin dalam jenis garis-garis itu.
Ada parallel lines. Seperti dua orang yang memiliki banyak kesamaan dan selalu berjalan berdampingan, tetapi sampai kapanpun tidak akan bersatu. Ada juga intersecting lines, mereka berbeda satu sama lain, memiliki kepribadian yang bertolak belakang, namun mereka akhirnya bertemu di satu titik yang menyatukan mereka, dengan semua perbedaan mereka. Dan yang terakhir, coincident lines, menggambarkan dua orang yang memiliki banyak kesamaan, namun mereka bersatu. But there's no such thing as a coincident. Sangat tidak mungkin dijumpai.
Jadi, kalau kita? :)
Ada parallel lines. Seperti dua orang yang memiliki banyak kesamaan dan selalu berjalan berdampingan, tetapi sampai kapanpun tidak akan bersatu. Ada juga intersecting lines, mereka berbeda satu sama lain, memiliki kepribadian yang bertolak belakang, namun mereka akhirnya bertemu di satu titik yang menyatukan mereka, dengan semua perbedaan mereka. Dan yang terakhir, coincident lines, menggambarkan dua orang yang memiliki banyak kesamaan, namun mereka bersatu. But there's no such thing as a coincident. Sangat tidak mungkin dijumpai.
Jadi, kalau kita? :)
Thursday, 24 January 2013
1. First KPOP Group? actually it's super junior for their songs, but first kpop group I love with its everything is BIGBANG
2. First KPOP Song? bonamana ;__;
3. Favorite Male KPOP Group? BIGBANG
4. Favorite Female KPOP Group? SNSD
5. Favorite Solo Artist? Ailee
6. Favorite KPOP Song? Flower Power atm ;D
7. Favorite KPOP Music Video? BEAUTIFUL HANGOVER AJSJASJAJS & bad boy +++
8. Favorite Ballad? Davichi's ballad
9. Catchiest Tune? Flower Power & Catch Me by TVXQ <3
10. Best Male Dancer? taec and joon hehehehe WHY
11. Best Female Dancer? yuri-ssi!
12. Best Male Vocalist? kim sunggyu..
13. Best Female Vocalist? Ailee and G.NA
14. Best Male Rapper? ilhoon, GD&TOP, mir & thunder omg i can't choose
15. Best Female Rapper? CL
16. Best Male Leader? GD
17. Best Female Leader? KIM TAEYEON :”>
18. Current song you’re listening to? the girl who can't break up, the boy who can't leave by Leessang ft Jung In! <3
19. Previous song you’re listening to? be mine :p
20. Next song you will be listening to? turned off the tv by leessang i just checked hahahah
21. Current KPOP Group addiction? BTOB!!!
22. Current KPOP Song addiction? WOW by btob!
23. Female KPOP Idol bias? yuri, suzy, jessica, jiyeon, sulli <33
24. Male KPOP Idol bias? UGH its just too much; myungsoo, sehun&luhan, chanyeol, baekhyunnie, peniel, minhyuk, minho, all BIGBANG and MBLAQ members, yonghwa, kang gary, taecyeon, wooyoung, jo kwon, kwang hee look how I fangirl a lot
26. Hottest Male Idol? Taecyeon <3
27. Hottest Female Idol? hyunA!
28. Cutest Male Idol? LUHAAAAAN && MINHYUKKK
29. Prettiest Female Idol? jiyeonn
30. Cutest maknae? mir!!!!!! omg i kenot
31. MBC, KBS or SBS? SBS ;)
32. Are you active on AllKPop? nope
33. Favorte Couple on WGM? teuk-sora, adam couple, && woojung <33
34. Which Fandoms are you apart of? hmm sone, VIP, A+
35. Which KPOP Group forum are you most active on? -
36. What is your favorite Korean Drama? 101 architecture!
37. What is your favorite Korean Variety show? RUNNING MAN OMG family outing, hello baby, strong heart!
Tuesday, 15 January 2013
So I listened blue (not that blue, but the other blue you perv) songs while the rain lasted hahaha I love raaaiiinn :) and I found out these lyrics that fit me and my situation so I'd like to blog them..
"Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling on your threads
And breaking yourself up
If it's a broken part, replace it
If it's a broken arm, then brace it
If it's a broken heart, then face it
And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
And everything will be fine." from Details In The Fabric by Jason Mraz
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"If you're standing with your suitcase
But you can't step on the train
Everything's the way that you left it
I still haven't slept yet
And if you're covering your face now
But you just can't hide the pain
Still setting two plates on the counter but eating without you
If the truth is you're a liar
Then just say that you're okay
I'm sleeping on your side of the bed
Goin' out of my head now
And if you're out there trying to move on
But something pulls you back again
I'm sitting here trying to persuade you like you're in the same room
And I wish you could give me the cold shoulder
And I wish you could still give me a hard time
And I wish I could still wish it was over
But even if wishing is a waste of time
Even if I never cross your mind." from If You Ever Come Back by The Script
But you can't step on the train
Everything's the way that you left it
I still haven't slept yet
And if you're covering your face now
But you just can't hide the pain
Still setting two plates on the counter but eating without you
If the truth is you're a liar
Then just say that you're okay
I'm sleeping on your side of the bed
Goin' out of my head now
And if you're out there trying to move on
But something pulls you back again
I'm sitting here trying to persuade you like you're in the same room
And I wish you could give me the cold shoulder
And I wish you could still give me a hard time
And I wish I could still wish it was over
But even if wishing is a waste of time
Even if I never cross your mind." from If You Ever Come Back by The Script
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With your eyes closed,
Watching a strange show
Play out in your head,
But you were smiling somehow
And your day froze,
And everyone in it
Sat still as a rose,
But we were moving somehow.
Back to where we started,
Losing who we were,
Maybe we should only
Tip a bottle back to keep us filled up.
Back to where we started,
Losing who we were,
Everybody knows that,
You’d break your neck to keep your chin up." from Chin Up by Copeland
15/01/13
It was a tough day in the end of September.
The day I've given up myself being a dreamer.
The day I've decided to be a quitter.
The day I've decided to be a victim than a soldier.
The day I was sadder than ever.
But also the day I met my lover.
HAHAHA keren gak sih? Gak tau kenapa lagi ujan ujan kepikiran bikin itu.
I miss him a lot, to be honest. I've been trying to reckless, been acting like I don't give a fuck, but I'm not a good liar. I can't lie. My head keeps telling me that he's the one. And I still love him.
So here I go.
It literally was a tough month -- September. I was hated, left alone, lost, didn't have anyone to talk. I hated school like, a lot. I was thinking of moving to another country would be great. I used to hate this world, including my 10-year-best-friend and our promises that she couldn't keep.. And also hated her disloyalty to me. On that month, I kicked out from saman-dance-whatever-it-is. They talked behind me, they said I was two-faced, bestfriendeater (oh I remembered nevershoutnever's song hahah nvm), and also shits I don't want to hear. But I still believe it caused by a mean girl that I know ;).. I cried my self to sleep every night, I kept questioning myself, "why is God so cruel to me?".. Tragic, isn't it?
God has another plan.
1. The saman dance team didn't make it to Turkmenistan which is sad for them and happy for me because they treated me like shit :D sorry :( told ya I can't lie!
2. I got closer to him & the boys. Better for me to have boy friends thanbackstabber girl friends..
3. I got a long time to think and finally decided I'm better off being myself than being an attention seeker whore, or being a person who goes to school to seek for popularity :)
4. I got close to God like srsly I can't even believe myself
5. I changed my perspective :D
He's my best friend I talk with, I make jokes with.. He made me laugh when I didn't even want to smile. He made my day amazing when it was supposed to be the worst day. HE WAS THERE when I didn't have anyone to trust, or even to talk. He made me comfort. He made me forget about my pain that I felt. But on that time, I didn't know I like him. I didn't realize. I forgot how exactly it was, but I started to like him.. Deeper, and deeper. He made me fell in love every time we meet.
Well, I can say that he made the first move. He asked my phone number, he told me that he missed me, he said he loves my favorite song, he picked me as his group member. But what I've been scared of, happened. He's gone, nowhere. We're rarely talk now, if yes it must be my day. He gave me something to remember tho -- something to remember, forever & ever.
He's a boy, but he acted like a man. He has responsibility to anything and he worked his best to get a good score. He's just... Different. I swear he's the man I've dreamed of..
:)
The day I've given up myself being a dreamer.
The day I've decided to be a quitter.
The day I've decided to be a victim than a soldier.
The day I was sadder than ever.
But also the day I met my lover.
HAHAHA keren gak sih? Gak tau kenapa lagi ujan ujan kepikiran bikin itu.
I miss him a lot, to be honest. I've been trying to reckless, been acting like I don't give a fuck, but I'm not a good liar. I can't lie. My head keeps telling me that he's the one. And I still love him.
So here I go.
It literally was a tough month -- September. I was hated, left alone, lost, didn't have anyone to talk. I hated school like, a lot. I was thinking of moving to another country would be great. I used to hate this world, including my 10-year-best-friend and our promises that she couldn't keep.. And also hated her disloyalty to me. On that month, I kicked out from saman-dance-whatever-it-is. They talked behind me, they said I was two-faced, bestfriendeater (oh I remembered nevershoutnever's song hahah nvm), and also shits I don't want to hear. But I still believe it caused by a mean girl that I know ;).. I cried my self to sleep every night, I kept questioning myself, "why is God so cruel to me?".. Tragic, isn't it?
God has another plan.
1. The saman dance team didn't make it to Turkmenistan which is sad for them and happy for me because they treated me like shit :D sorry :( told ya I can't lie!
2. I got closer to him & the boys. Better for me to have boy friends than
3. I got a long time to think and finally decided I'm better off being myself than being an attention seeker whore, or being a person who goes to school to seek for popularity :)
4. I got close to God like srsly I can't even believe myself
5. I changed my perspective :D
He's my best friend I talk with, I make jokes with.. He made me laugh when I didn't even want to smile. He made my day amazing when it was supposed to be the worst day. HE WAS THERE when I didn't have anyone to trust, or even to talk. He made me comfort. He made me forget about my pain that I felt. But on that time, I didn't know I like him. I didn't realize. I forgot how exactly it was, but I started to like him.. Deeper, and deeper. He made me fell in love every time we meet.
Well, I can say that he made the first move. He asked my phone number, he told me that he missed me, he said he loves my favorite song, he picked me as his group member. But what I've been scared of, happened. He's gone, nowhere. We're rarely talk now, if yes it must be my day. He gave me something to remember tho -- something to remember, forever & ever.
He's a boy, but he acted like a man. He has responsibility to anything and he worked his best to get a good score. He's just... Different. I swear he's the man I've dreamed of..
:)
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