“Unrequited love does not die; it’s only beaten down to a secret place where it hides, curled and wounded. For some unfortunates, it turns bitter and mean, and those who come after pay the price for the hurt done by the one who came before.”

—	Elle Newmark, The Book of Unholy Mischief

30/7

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updated k-pop quiz yay

hai selamat liburan semuanya!!!! final exam's over YAY bet i'm gonna spend 40 days in front of my desk dan saya sangat bosan sekarang jadinya i'm gonna renew k-pop quiz i've done karena yang gue isi beberapa bulan yang lalu itu ternyata isinya ngaco semua dibanding yang gue tau sekarang AHAHAH K BYE

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1. First KPOP Group? Super Junior.... ok 

2. First KPOP Song? Bonamana

3. Favorite Male KPOP Group? BIGBANG and B.A.P hehehehehehehehe <33

4. Favorite Female KPOP Group? GG and secret

5. Favorite Solo Artist? Ailee and Jay Park hi jay

6. Favorite KPOP Song? (of all time) BIGBANG - Monster & Tonight & Still Alive & Stay &........

7. Favorite KPOP Music Video?  Lee Hyori's Bad Girls // all-time; BIGBANG's Tonight omfg

8. Favorite Ballad? Doushite by DBSK

9. Catchiest Tune? FLOWER POWER! and Catch Me, Wolf all SM lol

10. Best Male Dancer? Zelo & Jongup <333

11. Best Female Dancer?  Min or Hyoyeon! The dance sisters <3

12. Best Male Vocalist? Daehyunnie D.O and Chen :|

13. Best Female Vocalist? Jieun

14. Best Male Rapper? I've always in love with rappers so it's hard I think I'm gonna write down all of them; GDTOP yongguk krisyeol <3

15. Best Female Rapper? CL THE BADDEST FEMALE

16. Best Male Leader? MY BANG YONGGUK & SUHO & KRISEU <3333

17. Best Female Leader? Taeyeon!

18. Current song you’re listening to? Lee Hi - Rose

19. Previous song you’re listening to? Infinite - BTD

20. Next song you will be listening to? YOU ARE MY POISHEEEEENN

21. Current KPOP Group addiction? B.A.P B.A.P B.A.P <3 & EXO <3

22. Current KPOP Song addiction? Paradise by Infinite, kinda late..

23. Female KPOP Idol bias? I love CL I love Yuri and Hyoyeon I love Hyosung and Sunhwa so hard I cannot choose

24. Male KPOP Idol bias?  ONCE I START THIS I CAN'T STOP OK GET READY. i stan all B.A.P EXO and BIGBANG's members, Taecyeon, Woohyun, Sunggyu (yes I know), Jonghyun from SHINee, Sungjae, Hyunsik, Peniel, Ilhoon,................. (infinite)

26. Hottest Male Idol? number 24 + Mr. Jay anyway where's number 25

27. Hottest Female Idol? Bora-ssi I'm lesbian for her

28. Cutest Male Idol? Sungjong I'm sorry I love you

29. Prettiest Female Idol? Sooyoung and Tiffany

30. Cutest maknae? ZELOOOOOOOOOO why 

31. MBC, KBS or SBS? SBS

32. Are you active on AllKPop? No… I hate AKP… they are horrible in every sense of the word

33. Which Fandoms are you apart of? hm a lot

34. What is your favorite Korean Drama? Rooftop Prince & Flower Boy Next Door <333

0330

나 아직도 너를 지울 수 없어
자꾸자꾸 니가 생각나
니가 너무 보고 싶어
밤새 한숨도 잘 수 없어
내 맘 창문을 두드리는 빗소리
니가 떠나 버린 그자리
너무나도 그리워서
밤새 한숨도 잘 수 없어 난

AJ – 빗길 비켜 지나가는 너의 뒷 모습
아무 것도 할 수 없는 나는 거듭
해서 매일 난 또 후회를 해 미안해
기도해 I want you to be back
I can’t 견딜 수 없어 네가
없는 하루니까 참을 수 없어 눈가에 눈물 흘러 내가
again 너를 잊을 수 있을까
언제까지 나는 이럴까

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I still can’t erase you
Again and again I think of you
I miss you too much
I can’t sleep at night
The raindrops are knocking at my heart’s window
The place that you’ve left
I miss it too much
I can’t sleep at night

The view of your backside walking through the rainy path
I can’t do anything but stay
Everyday I keep regretting it, I’m sorry
I pray
I want you to be back
I can’t, I can’t touch you
I can’t bear the day without you
Can’t hold back the tears
again I can’t forget you
Till when will I be like this

0330 by 유키스

15/5

tomorrow is the last day.
sometimes i hate goodbyes, ends;
sometimes i am thankful.
i know i hate to say goodbye with the one i love the most;
but i know everything has to end, has an end.

I'm scared to get close and I hate being alone.
I long for that feeling to not feel at all.
The higher I get, the lower I'll sink.
I can't drown my demons, they know how to swim.

Can you hear the silence?
Can you see the dark?
Can you fix the broken?
Can you feel my heart?

sad

i hate being ugly.
i hate being fat.
i hate being sad.
i want to be someone else.
i want to be someone you love.
i want to be everything you want me to be.